Yikes...I am slipping!

Quickly now:
THURSDAY April 19, 2012

Breakfast: wheat English muffin with butter and a banana and naughty coffee

LUNCH: big salad with chicken and chickpeas and kidney beans

DINNER: small burger on wheat roll, sweet potato fries (oven), quinoa salad (1/8 c), 1/4 oz cheese, apprix. 50 cals of condiments

SNACK: one stingy bite of Hannah's fudge stick, one vodka with 0 cal juice

Ya, I'm still a loser, not weight just pride, but I'm trying moderately hard. Fuck, I love food! Why can't fat be beautiful and why is dressing like Mrs. Roper such a point of shame. Uggg, God help me to stop lusting. I see a beige truck and want butterscotch pudding. I see fresh grass and crave lime Jello with whipped cream...drool, I see deer poop and think about Glosett raisins...lol. Just kidding. I meant Glosett peanuts. Anyway...I'm just a normal girl in a normal world. This is my weight loss journey...

FRIDAY April 20, 2012

BREAKFAST: Kay's Kozy Korner, bacon, eggs, toast, home fries...I ate my toast and a bit of eggs

LUNCH: big regular salad minus cheese and bacon since some prick took the last Mexican salad. I bet he can't even speak Spanish!

DINNER: tacos-black beans, salsa, sour cream, bit o'meat, tomatoes

SNACK: God forgive me for this but I ate Hannah's non-420 brownies with 8 beer.

Ok. Yes, I do want to be thinner. I'm having my period and have ridiculous cravings. I can't help it or if I can I don't want to. The brownies are the best. They taste like crushed angels combined with cotton candy and sprinkles made with puppies and kittens. Who in their right mind wouldn't want to eat them! Don't judge me...at least I didn't eat the '420' brownies.

Obviously I won't come close to the 6 lb weight loss suggested but as long as I'm not gaining weight I suppose that is okay. I'm almost finished radiation and surpassed my fundraising goal of $1000 for cancer so I suppose I'm doing okay. I'm happy and have great friends. All is wonderful in my world. I have been blessed in more ways than I can convey. I will lose my weight but it will be on my time...

Cheers
Jeannie